Interview
with Sue Woolfe, 1992
This
interview took place in Sydney, in March 1992, and was published in the
book Making Stories, 1993. It is about seven printed pages long.
Australian writer Sue Woolfe is co-author with Kate Grenville of Making
Stories, and the author of (among other works) the novels Leaning
Towards Infinity and The Secret Cure.
Sue Woolfe: How did the writing of Lilian's
Story begin?
Kate Grenville: It began in a sort of soup - lots of
completely disconnected things going on in my mind. The first was that I'd
just finished Dreamhouse and was sick to death of living in that
cynical bloodless world. I wanted to live in the book of a positive,
vital, cheery kind of world for a while. Another was that I was just about
to come back to Australia after seven years away, and I was starting to
think about the place, through the distorting - or maybe clarifying - lens
of distance. And one of the images of Sydney that I came across, turning
over images in my mind, was Bea Miles, a famous Sydney eccentric of my
growing-up days. A bag-lady, but a cheerful soul. What I was reading had
nothing to do with Sydney, though: I was reading the letters of Jane
Austen and Flaubert.
Well, all those elements were
going on, and I was making desultory notes as I was reading the Jane
Austen letters, and suddenly a sentence leaped out at me from the page:
"In the nights we invent a few hard names for the stars." I wrote it down
and found myself writing the fragment about Bea Miles sitting on the
beach.
These handwritten fragments, prefaced by
dates of Jane Austen's letters are the earliest notes for Lilian's
Story. Words in [square brackets] are crossed through in the original
draft.
Thurs 15 Sept 1796 p 14
Sun 18 Sept
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Sat 27 Oct 1798 p 24
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invent a few hard names for the stars
In the nights we build
fires from the wood [that] frayed by the tides and invent a few hard names
for the stars. Hebdomedary, old Francis suggests after a long
silence. Or cornucopia. [The wood] When the flames reach in and singe the
wood it spits salt and embers that pulse on the sand before [they die]
dying. Evelyn and the baby make damp noises to each other and when [that]
the tiny [tooth] blunt-gummed mouth begins to smack at the air we hear
Evelynl's buttons release a breast [and Blue] Tommo works each night to
bury [both feet and both hands in] his limbs under the fine cool sand,
[that] with its stores /of/ cigarette butts, as if for the future, [but]
and then sits as if /invisible or/ guiltless, examining the
water.
These summer nights are our times for telling the stories
of our lives, either the ones we had or the ones we wished for. We watch
by cold starlight and hot flames as tears slime down Francis' cheeks. [My]
The wife he'll say and look for the bottle /beside him/. [Me little
girl] he'll say and the cork will make a hollow /mocking/ sound [of
contempt mockery]. Those who spend their days [with coins sliding smug the
power of] smiling and worrying at each other, and their nights behind
walls and windows, would claim that Francis has never had wife or
daughter, and never wanted anything but the loving boy he never quite had,
but we listen and throw another plank onto the flames, and later one of us
might hold him a little as he shudders under the dew. Across the water, as
black as the inside of an ear, the windows of those in the old country
seem to be sending us code as the branches of their domesticated trees
bend [in front] down across the light, and up again. [In] When our
memories or inventions fail us we [listen to the sem] watch the yellow
semaphore and the baby clutches out feebly as if to put the flickering
lights into his mouth. Snug as a bug in a rug, Evelyn says, but it
is not [possible to know] clear if she speaks of the baby or those [in th]
secure in their houses across the bay. Behind us a few more handfuls of
plaster drop from the laths of the ceiling of Rosecroft and another
litter of rats is born, squeaking.
In the old country, across
other bays and tides, I have known the image of myself, a young girl with
glossy bangs, in the dim reflection of a window closing out night. I know
the chill on the shoulders after bending too long over the piano,
wondering if the draught meant someone had come in. When ants were
discovered seething through the sugar in the curled silver dish, Mother
had hidden her open mouth behind a hand and looked at me. I had accepted
her accusation, of course, and like those others I too was /slowly/
transported to a beach on the lip of another [new] strange land./ The
privilege of the first settlers is to impose names of their own invention
on the new world./
Along the tide-line where we sit, our faces
glowing and our backs pimpled with cold, the litter of everyone else's
lives seemed washed up for our inspection, washed obsessively by the
harbour's tides.
Kate Grenville: At that stage I
knew hardly anything about the real Bea Miles, and I certainly didn't know
that I was beginning to write a book about a person rather like her. She
and the sentence from Jane Austen connected, that was all I knew, but if
I'd been asked then, I probably would have said she was going to be a
minor character in the book.
At that time I didn't
allow myself to think any further than: here is a character, a setting and
a tone that interest me. If I stir the waters around, I may come across
other interesting things. And out of that may come the subject of a
novel.
The more I wrote about her . . . well, two
things started to happen. The first was I realised that the voice she
spoke with was the voice I wanted to write in. I knew I was going to enjoy
that voice. The other was that, slowly, I realised that she was going to
be central.
Did you do any research into her
life?
Not
until much, much later. I researched her after I'd written many drafts, in
fact. I wasn't all that interested in the real Bea Miles, but in what she
represented to me. As I wrote more and more, she - at least my idea of her
- began to embody ideas I'd been vaguely mulling over for quite a
while-about how a woman gets to write her own life, rather than have it
written for her. How a woman gets to turn her back on all the things women
are supposed to want, and invent another set of priorities. How it feels
to be a big loud rude active woman instead of a little meek polite one.
Dreamhouse had been a book about passivity and lack of
self-knowledge - the exact mirror image of that.
Looking back now, it's almost as if I had written one side of the equation
in Dreamhouse and wanted to write the other side. But I was pretty
sure that if I found out too much about the real Bea Miles I would be
locked in then, to her. My own imagination would be blinkered. So I wrote
perhaps three drafts of the book, and then I went in to the State Library
and read about her a bit. Lilian's Story overlaps with the life of
Bea Miles in a few places, but that's all - it's not really about her at
all.
What other kinds of elements did you "stir
around"?
My own memories of childhood, particularly schoolyard memories,
went into the stew - I suddenly realised how I could use those in a way
that made them not just boring old self-regarding autobiography. I could
give them to this woman who was starting to take shape in my mind and they
could be transformed. Also as I wrote the book - I was back in Australia
then - people told me stories about Bea Miles, and with some of those I
thought yes, I can use that.
As I started to home
in on the idea of Bea Miles a bit more, as I realised that I could use her
as my central character, it was natural to start to look at Shakespeare.
Bea Miles was famous for quoting Shakespeare outside the Public Library -
sonnets were threepence, a scene from a play was sixpence. The
Tempest was the play I used most obsessively in the
book.
There were other things, too. While I was
writing the book I went to the National Gallery and I saw paintings there
that just . . . exhilarated me. Blue Poles was one, and that Tiepolo
ceiling where you're looking up the bums of all the cherubs, and some of
Nolan's Ned Kelly pictures. They were so bold! I kept repeating the word,
I remember, in a sort of astonishment. I remember coming back and throwing
myself back into the book with renewed energy - it wasn't that there was
anything I could use directly from the pictures, it wasn't even really the
pictures themselves, but that sense of
risk-taking.
As you say, Jane Austen's letters and Flaubert seem a long way
from Bea Miles - what was it you found so useful in all those other
writings?
It was my way of getting the voice. Mainly it was their tone, the
tone I wanted to be able to write in, a kind of expansive, confident,
slightly self-mocking voice. I knew I wanted to write in that
voice.
I just kept on reading Jane Austen's
letters and Flaubert's letters and Shakespeare, and every time I got to a
bit I liked the sound of, I'd use it as a starting point for a short piece
of writing. For example, I borrowed the line from Shakespeare: "Every
third thought shall be my grave" and used it several times as a
springboard. It was almost free association, but free association within
the magnetic field, if you like, of the image of a big powerful woman
whose empire was the streets of Sydney.
I wanted
to get away from any sequential or logical process. It was an invitation
for the mind to leap around rather than walk. It was just a stab in the
dark.
Every third thought is my grave while, with my toes, unconscious in
the sand, I dig furrows big enough to bury mice in matchboxes. John had a
way with sandcastles I never had, patience to furrow and burrow through
the whole edifice so that, lying on my stomach,/looking through,/ I could
see a patch of his brown face with a smear of sand on his chin, on the
other side. His moats were models, each drawbridge another blow for
democracy. The flag on top, a gum-leaf poked into the damp sand, did not
waver but turned loosely in its socket against the breeze from the waves.
I could see his [crawling] blue play-suit crawling with its yellow bucket
between the sea and the castle, filling the moat endlessly as it drained
as quickly back to sea. Finally I would clamber so far up the rough cliff
side that it seemed I would be able to crush him with one strong leap
outwards. Father, though, sauntering out from under the umbrella /to check
on his son,/ would be a tougher nut to crack.
Every third
thought is of my grave. Frank will go first, I think, however. Some dank
June night when we hear the tankers mooing to each other like full udders
in the fog, when the crumbling walls of Rosecroft do nothing to
keep out the cold, when the fires we build there on the floors have burnt
down and there are no more laths handy - on [some] one night or other like
that, [he will groan, hiccup a last] Frank will die. Frank was once a
wealthy man, he says, and has written a will, he says, leaving his estate
in its entirety to me, he says. Two or three glasses more and he may well
claim to be the lost scion of the House of Windsor.
Frank will
go first, perhaps in my arms, perhaps rolled tightly into his own corner
of the room in Rosecroft. Where the ceiling has not unclenched the
plaster, there are still swags of flowers and crisp bows up there, dusted
with soot from our fires. In the corners, under the rubble and faeces, the
boards of the floor still gleam in spots where [some] the maid on hands
and knees, kneeling on the thickness of folded sheet, her cobbled soles
exposed pathetically to the door, polished until she could make out [a
dark] the murky threatening shape she knew to be her [head]
face.
(Rosecroft belongs to Bea? Fire burns it & her down?)
Did you do a lot of
rewriting?
The difficulty was that I had a paucity of incidents. I had the
voice to say it in, and a sense that I would arrive at underlying ideas
that would give it some substance, but I was always scratching around for
things actually to happen.
So you would've liked a
plot?
When
I have a plot from the beginning it can be a disadvantage, because it
takes some of the element of surprise out of it for me. I seem to prefer
to be plotless until quite late on, because that way I discover things I
wouldn't otherwise.
When I ran out of steam in
Joan Makes History I could fall back on some real event from
history, whereas with Lilian I had to fall back on finding something
colourful, something just beautiful in its own right, not connected to
anything bigger. But you can't always write a book like that. Every book
has its own personality, and I seem to have to find a slightly different
mechanism for keeping up that excitement in every book.
In fact, plot ideas gave me a lot of false starts. Some of those
false starts had nothing wrong with them - they just didn't feel like part
of this book. At some point I began to feel as if I was beginning to
uncover several other books as well as Lilian's Story. For example,
this extract turned out to be the seed for my next novel, Joan Makes
History.
It was one thing to draw careful pictures of Sir Joseph Banks
Discovering Bottlebrush, or maps of New South Wales with a red
arterial maze of Governor Macquarie's Roads. It was something else
to have to think of what Mrs Banks and Mrs Macquarie would have been
doing, and what everyone might have had for tea. Muffins? London Broil?
Damper? Mrs Poole had never been quite sure what damper was but was
sure it was not pleasant. Nor did she wish to hold up the whole
class for such questions. On the boys' side of the room, John blushed
and Stewart made a noise like a fart with a piece of his father's best
rubber-band. Miss Poole was sweating lightly under her powder and Ashes of
Violets, and decided that [Gwen sh] it was time that Gwen [stammering Gwen
would] should read aloud. Page 53, Gwen. Under the picture.
Gwen could not be prevailed on to stand and read, nor would she read from
a sitting position, and continued to shake the silky mouse-brown fringe
that hid her face and make tiny anguished gestures with her fingers on the
pages of the book, until the bell rang for recess.
[It was easy
to answer] What happened in 1813? It was easy to answer that Blaxland,
Lawson and Wentworth crossed the Blue Mountains for the first time. But it
was more interesting to imagine . . .
So, you didn't start your story at the beginning and work in
order?
My
image of Bea Miles was of course of her as an old woman, because all the
famous stories are about Bea Miles as an old woman, and the few times I
had seen her she was an old woman. But pretty early on it began to be
apparent to me that the project of the book was to work out how she got
there. So I began to work . . . well, I didn't work backwards, I leapt
backwards then, to her childhood. I was fairly confident about writing her
schooldays because I knew that I could use so much of my own. The mature
Lilian I was fairly confident about too; I was confident that I could make
that work because of the tone I'd got from Austen and Shakespeare. But the
real mystery of the book was what happened in the middle. Something
happened at some point that caused her life to take this particular turn.
So in the writing I did a pincer movement from the two parts that I was
confident about, the beginning and the end, and gradually began to
tentatively feel my way into that middle part.
Everything I'd written previously, I'd written much more consciously than
this book, and I'd thought very early about things like the motivation of
my characters, and where the plot would go, and I'd had chapter-plans and
all the rest of it.
When I did this first writing
for Lilian's Story, I'd just finished two years of studying in the
University of Colorado writing program, and finally - now that it was over
- I had come round to the idea that maybe you could write books in a much
more open-ended way. Each day when I sat down to write, I'd have no idea,
till I got going, whether I was going to write a scene from the end of the
book or the beginning, or something that didn't seem to belong anywhere.
That's why there wasn't so much a shift as a sort of pogo-sticking from
one bit to the next, depending what happened to fall under my
hand.
How
did you structure all these fragments?
Once I decided to tell the story
chronologically, the fragments fitted together fairly easily.
The biggest struggle I had was to recognise that I had to go
with the material in the way it had come to me. What I had was a pile of
fragments, and my first thought was: Okay, this is good raw material for a
book; now I have to make it into a flowing narrative. So I smoothed it all
out. Instead of having each one being a jumpy little scene of its own, I
made them flow together, and I even wrote little transitions to force them
to flow when they didn't. Something terrible happened to it when I did
that - it just all went dead. Finally I had to accept that those fragments
were not preliminary notes, they were the structure of the book
itself.
That process of moving things around would seem to be a process
of great logistical difficulty. Did you have lots of bits of paper that
you reshuffled?
I probably should have, but I was writing in exercise books at this
time. I'd write it by hand in the exercise books in whatever order it
came. When I had around 60 to 70 pages, I started to see that some
fragments belonged together. I numbered each fragment, and wrote
instructions: now go to page 17, number 4, that kind of thing. Then I
typed it out, according to those instructions. Then after writing some
more fragments I'd see I had to rearrange it again, and I'd cut up the
typescript and hang bits together with sticky tape. I'd end up with a sort
of fringe effect of little strips precariously taped
together.
You've spoken of enjoying that voice that you discovered. Were
there doubts, as well as the pleasures?
Pleasure reigned supreme whenever the
writing was just a private thing that I was doing for myself. The doubts
started as soon as I began to think of the world out there actually
reading what I was writing. For the longest time, I didn't think Lilian
was a book that would ever be published - it was just something I was
doing for my own pleasure, and one of these days I would start a
real book. It felt very self-indulgent.
I
used to read the weekend book pages - reviews - and that fed the doubts.
It's the job of the reviewer to analyse and judge, but those ways of
thinking may not be at all useful for a person actually engaged in
writing. If you ask yourself what your book's about you get all
twisted up - at least that's my experience - and if you ask whether or not
it works you'll always find fault with it. Getting into the critic or
reviewer state of mind makes me timid as a writer. I start to play it safe
and the writing gets strangled with sheer
caution.
How do you get around that?
I find going back to handwriting is
good, because handwriting is very personal, very private. You can feel
with handwriting that no one else is going to read it. On the typewriter
or the computer it suddenly has that public look about it.
I also find writing in fragments is good, because while it's
in fragments, I can tell myself: Well, this is obviously not a book, this
is just some raw material. And of course I've stopped reading the book
pages.
What
keeps you writing in the face of all these
doubts?
I
think I write as a way of contemplating something I don't understand -
there's a curiosity, an itch, that keeps you going, no matter how strong
your doubts are. It's not that you think what you produce is going to be
good, but because you need to know something. And you can only know it by
writing it. The method seems quite random, but the end result is very
focussed . . .
That sense of: If it hadn't been this event, it
would have been another event, suggests that the book would have become
Lilian's Story whatever chances had
happened.
I so much wanted to explore the notion of a self-defining woman -
it was such a powerful preoccupation in my mind - that almost any material
would have arrived at the same destination.
But
there was an element of magic about writing the book. There were times
when I felt in direct relation to that voice, and that the book was - as
they say - "writing itself" through me. Lilian's voice felt very natural
to me, although it's not a voice I ever use in my own life. In taking on
that persona - that voice, actually - I discovered an astonishing freedom.
Perhaps that's the compulsion of writing: the freedom to be, not somebody
else, but another of your selves.
A page
of typescript from a draft of Lilian's Story.