I never had a 'conversion' to xtianity. I was just born into it. My mother was raised a devout, fire & brimstone southern baptist, and she raised my sisters and I the same way. We rarely attended church, mainly because my Mom didn't like the snooty social club environment of the few churches we did attend.

Even though I never went through a 'born again' or 'filled with the holy spirit' experience, I was a full-on xtian, praying every day and every night my entire life, up to my late 20s when I just had to accept that it wasn't there, that I felt nothing and was probably kidding myself. I had no big trauma in my life, no feeling of being forsaken by and uncaring god or anything; I just couldn't believe anymore. There's nothing there, and that's fine with me. It's set me free, really. I now live in harmony with the universe, meaning I accept the laws of nature and the human condition.

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