when i was exploring egyptian mythology i came across the name amen which comes at the end of christian prayer. in egyptian it is a ram headed god that looks like the christian devil. in roman mythology lucifer was god of the sun and diana's brother. in many mythologies goddesses and snakes working together are common. christianity stole my ancestors dieties and warped them and mocked them. i am still angry at what they did to my ancestors and to all non christians.

i can remember when my mom was on foodstamps, we were having most bills paid for by relatives. but every sunday she would give away money to the church. my mom and relatives are still in soul slavery especially my mom. my grandma keeps telling me that men are supposed to rule and animals are here to serve humans.

i am barely able to keep my sanity their beliefs have always been opposite of my family. i feel so alone in this tiny town in the country. at sunday school i cry inside because of the lies the children are told; homosexuals are demon possed (i am bisexual) that is how i realized christianity is slavery. i later found out that the preaching methods are brainwashing techniques. the preachers i have seen always try to make people feel dirty and usually most people in the churches cry the whole time there. also in my history book from school the methods of christanity are exactly like that of a totalitarian state.

even though i am out of christianity i still feel like a slave because no one knows but they still force their beleifs on me. somehow i feel aradia let me down because she said i would be free but i can't celebrate my faith in the open. if i come out in faith and sexuality my grandma will die in pain and i would killed (not literally i hope) i pray to the deities i will be free of this someday. i thank fortuna that i had the good luck to find away and not be caught. i wish i could worship my panteon in the open and people would be happy for me and not sing hymns and try to brainwash me. i pray one day my mom will find a faith that won't make her depression worse.

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