My parents were both Catholics, but we only went to church occasionally. After I my disasterous Kindergarden year in a public schoo, my mother felt that I couldn't survive in a public school. She sent me to a Catholic elementry school. This school wasn't that much different from a public school. We used the same text books, and even though we were taught religion we still were taught that all roads lead to Heaven. In short even though someone might die a Hindu they can still go to Heaven if they were a good Hindu.

The school only had six grades so after I finished sixth grade, my mother sent me to a fundamentalist Baptist school. At the time I moved I had started wondering if I would be good enough to enter Heaven. That had been something that bothered me. One day during a schoo a guest speaker got up, and told us that if we were not sure whether or not we were going to Heaven that we needed to go with him. Since I wasn't sure I went with him. He took me to a room in the back, and he read some Bible verses. He then had me pray, and I was saved. I had no idea what that meant, but they told me that I was goin to Heaven.

One day in class my history teacher told me that members of religions go to Hell. I started crying wondering how such a loving god would allow such a thing to happen. However gradually I was brainwashed into accepting this nonsense. I then realized that since I had not believed that others go to Hell then I must not have been saved. I then went to a Baptist church, and told the minister that I wanted to be saved. I said the sinners prayer with all my heart, and now I was really saved!!! I joined the church, was baptized, and became one of the most respected members.

After a while I stopped feeling saved. This devistated me, I had felt so good being saved yet a few months later felt nothing. I prayed about this, went on mission trips, and became more active in the church. I still felt nothing. I started saying the sinners prayer over and over again. I still felt nothing. I was with my church youth group to a revival where speaker David Nasser's sermon convinced me that I wan't really saved. During the invitation I went up and asked to be saved. A man read some Bible verses to me, and I was saved again. I was overjoyed about this, I even gave my testimony at church about it. However a few weeks later I felt nothing.

I prayed and prayed about this. I even wound up being saved a fourth time, but I still didn't feel saved. I said the sinners prayer over and over again but still felt nothing. Finally I wondered if the reason why God wasn't answering my prayers is because he doesn't exist. I read atheist material, examined church history, and read the Bible more objectively. I discovered that Christianity was no more than a man made religion started by primitive people trying to explain what they didn't know.

I feel very relieved to discover Christianity is false. I no longer have to worry about family members burning in Hell. I no longer fear this Big Brother like being upset at me. I am FREE!!!

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