I was born raised and baptised roman catholic by two wonderful parents. My bio grandfather insisted i go to a catholic school. After a few years at a secular private school, I left because the principal had some mental problems. I went to catholic school for a few years and did not do well acedemically. The principal was fake, he put on a front to show he was nice but he was very arrogant.

At 16 I was walking through a bookstore with my Mom and I picked up a book called Zen Catholicism.

At 17 i encountered a book called "the Te of Piglet". I read it for a few minutes while I was at work It opened the door slightly. I felt unsasisfied with Catholicism, the service was boring. (the history of catholicism was unsavory too considering my ancestors were native americans it puts me at an awkward postition)

I went to other denominations Lutheran Baptist Pentecostal Angelican Messianic Jewish and Nazarene. I saw a fight break out at my best friend's church it phased me a little but not as much as what happened after.....

At 25 a few things really shook my beliefs my best friend who wanted to be a priest (so I thought) nearly became atheist. How could such a thing happen? Several months later i went to Odessa to meet my blood relatives

I had an aunt and a blood mom that fought over who has the right religion and the false christian was going to hell this started to get to me a bit more.

I decided to research other beliefs and read Taoism I felt a joy surge through me that I never felt with christianity! I told my Mom and she was fine with it (she believes there are many paths to God) I told my best friend's parents I became a Taoist my best friend, a staunch Luthern missouri fundie wasnt accepting and told me only christians go to heaven.

He also told me I was stupid for deconverting I was angry that he whould suggest such a stupid thing and I realized christianity was an arrgoant belief system especially since it talks of love and acceptance and most peoeple get fear guilt intolerance of other beliefs shame and arrogance.

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