I was around 17 when I read a book called "The Beautiful Side Of Evil" This was a Christian book that seemed to contradict some of the teachings of my church. Before that time I wasn't even aware that there was any thought systems outside of my church. At the same time I couldn't understand why the Lord would break himself up into a Trinity, so went and got a Koran to read. I read most of it but wasn't impressed. I guess that my church was not fulfilling my spiritual needs. So I went searching.

I read some about human sacrafice and how many religions practiced it, including just about every form of State sancioned deism there has ever been. I have also read creepy things about the Freemasons. My sister and her friend were invited into a Masionic lodge and were "freaked out and creeped out". I have read about religious wars of the monotheistic religions. Bush's war is fought in his name and babies are born deformed because of the depleated uranium that is being used. A movie, "All Quite On The Western Front" shows that World War 1 was fought in His name. Both the Germans and French belived that it was his will to fight in the war. A deity who pits his followers against each other! I decided that war was just His way of gaining human sacrifice. I beleive that 9-11 was a human sacrifice to the Lord, which increased his mana and gave him power. Aldolph Hitler was both a Christian and a Pagan.

I should add that I've had too many occult experiences to believe that there is not a spirit world. I'm not an atheist. Neither do I follow or love any deity. And you didn't think that was possiable!

I had to come to the conclusion that all of the gods are evil, including the god of monotheism.

Then I learned that the gods indeed do have enemys, they are called Titans, Asura, or Giants. I now beleive that the are TWO (2) basic creator beings, one male the other female. I can call them Apzu and Tiamat. I beleive that existance depends upon the balancing of dynamic opposites, including Order and Chaos.

I also admire the Dr. Gene Ray. I think that he is brave to speak out against the Singularity Principle. I mean, most people beleive in the Singularity Principle and the world is being destroyed. Our beleifs effect our actions.

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