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I left because it was stifling, unbreathable, because they kept preaching that George Bush was God's man for the moment and used Pat Robertson as a credible prophetic source.
I couldn't believe how strictly they defined belonging and non-belonging. That gave me visions of what it must have felt like as the Nazi's tookover Germany. Belonging and non-belonging became such a big issue.
They thought it was justifiable to tell people which romantic relationships they should get into. And nobody thought this was crazy?!
They preached absolute truth, but when other people disagreed with them they said "Its just your worldview". that was the biggest contradiction right there - they only believed in truth from their own perspective, but wouldn't allow others to disagree.
Although sweet and polite, were filled with arrogance of youth. thought they knew everything, felt nauseated by 18 year olds thinking they had the wisdom of life just coz they ran a cell.
Couldnt stand not being able to have a normal conversation. Everything had to be biblicalised and euphemised into Christianese. Abnormal... Felt like people couldn't just be normal and ask and speak as they felt. People around me thought they had to correct every line of conversation with the so-called 'Truth'... WONDERING, fooling around, being young and uncertain was seen as not knowing God enough.
Lastly, because they preached harmony amongst all people, yet in private conversation were happy to speak racist stereotypes (politely of course). Galling.
I gave up gradually. In mind, then in spirit, then in body. it was then that i found true true peace of mind and peace with self.
Young women in church were highly insecure. Always doubting their worth in God... weird... No confidence on the inside but lots of confidence when confronting the world of its sins... weird...
Happier than i've ever been as a free spirit. The truth did set me free. I don't think they have the truth. The charismatic theology is bankrupt and misses the point because its dogmatic.
| Sex | [sex] |
| Age I Joined | 10 |
| Why I joined | Love for God |
| Age I Left | 23 |
| Why I left | Nothing hangs, Charismatism = Happy-Clappy Fascism |
| What I was | Charismatic |
| What I am now | Free Spirit |