I will not give my name as I was also stalked and threatened.

Basically years ago I was having some marital difficulties, and not having a close family I was unable to confide in anyone close to me.

One day while shopping I bumped into an old friend who I had not seen for many years. I remembered her to be depressed and miserable and had marital difficulties of her own all those year ago.

She looked very happy and I asked her 'secret'. She told me she had found god and that everything in her life had turned around. Her life was just wonderful (a lie I found out later - in fact her marriage was worse. But that was Satans fault!!)

So anyway she and I hooked up again and she took me to the meetings and I met lots of so called really nice christian people who were very friendly and had my best interests at heart and wanted to give me marital advice etc.

I had a group of women my friend included come around to my house and pray through the house. They asked me to put my husbands underwear on the bed and they proceeded to pray that the devil leave my husbands things and restore our marriage back to the way it should be in gods eyes.

They went through all his videos and books and told me that I should burn anything that was not 'of god'.

I can tell you that went down a treat with my husband who had no idea that I was trying to find some advice on marriage etc.

I was told that I should stop the children from watching television and not go into shopping centres as they were full of evil spirits.

My goodness what I put my husband through!!

My marriage did end up ending and I was devastated but I was lead to believe that it was the work of the devil, not that I had basically destroyed my marriage with their help of course.

I was told that if I slept with my husband that I would be sleeping with satan as my husband was a non believer. My children were at danger of being lead to hell because of their father.

Years later after getting back with my husband a few times trying to reconcile. My husband said that he had had enough and left for the final time. He had found someone else who wasn't 'strange'. I was advised by the church to divorce him as 'he' had been adulterous. In the first few months that we had been separated I was introduced to a man who worked within the church. He had never been married and I was lead to believe was in his late thirties. I was pushed to marry this man ( I was still devastated that my marriage had finished and very vulnerable). We did marry as people in authority in the church were telling me that god had spoken to them and said that it was his will that we marry.

So I did. I later found out that he was in his 50's and had a intellectual disability which he hid well. But I was still so devastated that I didn't notice or was just not in the right headspace to see the signs. I did at one stage go to the pastor of the church and tell him of a couple of concerns that I had, namely he was looking at my daughter in a strange way as well as walking in on her in the shower. The pastor said that it was all in my head and I was just uneasy because of my previous difficulties in keeping my marriage together.

We stayed together for 9 months. In that time my son was diagnosed with diabetes. I was informed that my son and I had sinned at some stage and that we were going to hell.

At that time I was also informed that because I divorced my first husband I was going to hell and then because I had remarried I was going to hell.

About a year after I divorced the christian, I found out that at the time I was being introduced to this christian man, people within the church were making complaints about this man and their children. An investigation was about to be started when they thought that if he got married it would be better for the church and he would look better amongst the congregation.

He had no idea of his birth year and could not read or write very well.

I also found out through a administration assistant who was later sacked from the church that the pastor was having an affair with one of the youth members of the church. He was taking money out of the church to pay not only for his new house but believed that it was his right to put his children through private education and the congregation was paying for it. Each week the congregation were constantly told that if we were poor it was our own fault as we were no tithing enough. And if he could not pay his bills we were not tithing enough.

We were told constantly that he planned to be a millionair by the time he was 40 so we should tithe more than what god asks.

After getting a divorce from the christian man. I was ignored and my children ostracised in front of the other children in 'childrens church'

I have been single now for many years, I do not trust christian people or other people, they lie to suit there own needs but feel it is ok because all they have to do is pray for forgiveness and they are ok.

I have seen single parents blamed for the situation they are in. I have seen disabled people told that they are disabled because of their sins. I have seen a poor lady told that if she gives her last dollar she will be rich, not financially but spiritally (which does not help when you cnat afford to eat).

I have been made to feel guilty for just about every possible bad thing that has happened in my life. The things that happen to every one.

Christians target the vulnerable, they take from the poor and then drive big expensive cars and live in mansions. They may have a memeber of their 'flock' that is poor and homeless, and tell them that if they have a little faith the size of a mustard seed they can have all that they have including the mansion and car and food on the table every night.

This is a lie, the only reason that the pastor has what he has is because he has a brainwashed congregation who are willing to part with their money while they sit on their backsides counting the cash.

How many of these pastors have homeless people in their homes for a meal. How many give to the poor or needy??

And why is their income tax free??

I have no respect for the so called church. I have no respect for born again christians. Instead of helping me with my marriage as they said god was able, they made it worse. I was vulnerable and in need of a friend which they said they would supply, they manipulated me and brainwashed me into thinking my husband was being directed by the devil, but in fact I think they are out to destroy lives for their own selfish gain.

My life has moved on I am now at university studying and my children are happy and healthy (albeit my son still has his diabetes)

I tend to believe in being happy with who I am and I so believe that their is a spirital side to this life, and that maybe there is a higher power but as for christianity - no - I don't believe in it at all.

I should have just gone to marriage counselling!!

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