Born into Roman Catholicism with a personality disordered mother who is still nuts. Dad is Italian catholic but only out of tradition and comfort. I get the impression he thinks it's BS as he is a very left wing liberal-as am I. I still battle with oppressive feelings of guilt, but somehow, even at 6 years old, the Jesus thing never made sense to me.

Anyway, I am an ER nurse in a VERY busy department. I see horror everyday. Don't tell me this is some part of a divine plan. There is absolutely NO good reason for a parent to have to see their child's lifeless body. There is NO good reason. I saw a 10 year hanging victim. It fucked me up for months, even after years of doing this job. I don't wanna hear that, "sometimes people interfere with God's plan". BULLSHIT Go ahead, come up with some other convoluted explanation. That guy that wrote, "The Purpose Driven Life" claims that God has a plan for us all and that he wept during the holocaust. OK, but then he sat back and did nothing in all of his omnipotence and omniscence! Gimme a break! Oh, and this guy (I think Richard Carlson is his name, may be wrong) claims that God chose our parents in order to give us the DNA combination that we have to make us into who we are so we can carry out his plan. OK, so what about the abused children. He makes us suffer so we can work for him?!? Sorry, I am not a coal miner in the 19th century or a slave or serf! God can create all of the majesty but can't fix the crap in life. I know it can't be perfect, but come on. All those fundies should come and work in the ER for a few shifts and get out of their upper middle class, white suburbs. It's easy to have explanations when you're not living the horror. (Yes, I am white girl from the burbs!) Anyway, so far I think that God is the growth and strength inside of us. WE are God, he can't be some nasty stepfather who gives us what we want if we kiss his ass!

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