I was raised in a christian home and went to church with my family. I didn't actualy become "saved" until I was 25 yrs old. At this time in my life I felt totaly directionless, found myself pregnant and unmarried after a failed marriage. God and salvation in Jesus was my answer. I was truly transformed and became devout in my christianity, attending church and then leading classes for single parents and singles.

I remarried 5 1/2 yrs ago to a devoted loving christian man and we have two more children. I was happy being a christian even though I didn't always like some christians. I figured they just hadn't "matured" yet in Christ.

I began to doubt that the Bible was truly the infallable, enerrent, inspired word of God that I had been taught and so believed. Especially Paul who is a male chauvinist PIG. Some of the doubts (actually screaming from within that this stuff is wrong)I had as a child while reading the Bible and listening to the stories came back to haunt me recently. I began a search into the New Testament's canonization and found appauling discrepencies among lie after lie and more and more questions instead of the clear cut answers you would expect to find from the ONE TRUE GOD's WORD and TRUTH. This search then lead me to the lies and discrepancies that are in the Old and New testaments of the bible.

I haven't left the church yet, though, my deeply christian husband is aware of my leaving the faith. Leaving the faith was a gradual step over a couple weeks of studying the bibles New and Old Testaments and seeing the lies, misquotes, non-quotes, contradictions, misappling OT writers and so on. I only firmly decided a week ago that the Bible is a lie and certainly NOT the infallable, enerrant and inspired word of God.

My husband did have a few harsh judgemental words for me and my answer was simply "you're a chicken ass if you wont study for yourself the contradictions and lies the apostles made in the New Testament....they are there for any one to see if they will only open their eyes instead of being lead around like a lost blind sheep".

My life is truly changing daily. I certainly don't believe in the God of the bible or the Christian hell or worried about that anymore. If there is a God I believe I will be judged according to my life and what I do with it, good or bad. Though I'm no longer a Christian I still believe in humanity and helping others.....way to many people suffer in this world to do nothing. If Christianity taught me any thing good let it be my compassion for those less fortunate. I didn't have much compassion for others before I was "saved", not to mention my self centeredness.

I can't say that I'm an atheist...Human beings and other animals are truly to complex and magnificant to be an accident or random selection of cosmic dust or??. So where did the dust or other particles come from? When the scientist/evolutionist can truly create an animal from dust then I will truly believe in no God.

I'm not sure yet where life will take me but I quarantee it wont be to any more lies. Been there done that...time to move on!!!!

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